Crazy little thing called love

Sometimes when I hold Silas, I look at him and get overwhelmed with feelings. I never knew that I could love another human in the capacity in which I love him. I never even knew this kind of love existed.
I used to say that I loved my neices and nephews like my own children. Now that I have one of my own I can say that while I love them a lot, I don't love them like my own. Very very close, but it's just not the same.
It's pretty crazy that this kind of love exists, and exists within me.

And then there's my husband. If I haven't mentioned before how amazing he is, I should do it now. He is truly the kindest, most wonderful man I've ever known aside from my father. Not only do I consider myself blessed to be married to him, I more so consider myself lucky that he even loves me. I don't think I'll ever believe that I deserve to be treated as well as he treats me, and that's the honest truth.

The love I have for him is ridiculous to say the least. Growing up I used to say that I didn't NEED someone in my life. That love was just having someone to enhance your life and make it better. SOOO untrue. I cannot imagine a single minute without Chris in my life. He's not just my husband and my lover, but he's my best friend and my soul mate.

Before Silas was born I used to think my heart was full. I loved Chris and our life so much I wondered if I could fit in more love for someone else. And then November 20th 2009 happened. The love a human can give is an amazingly wonderous thing.

Every time I think I can't fit in more love, Silas will smile or laugh at me. He'll cuddle into me, fall asleep on me, touch my face with his hand, or hold my finger. And each time he does these things, my heart grows more.

What else do I need in this life? I got to marry my best friend and I have an amazing little boy who's all mine. If I have nothing else it's okay with me. All I need is this crazy little thing we call love :)